May you all have a blessed Easter
Life throws us some serious curves at times but those of us who are resilient survive eventually and move on. There are times when it seems impossible to go on, the emptiness, loneliness, and pain are unbearable, unable to put one foot in front of the other just too difficult too find the strength to do so, too hard to reach down deep enough to pull oneself back up.
How Lord, how do I go on, oh Lord, please help me, how do I live without those who I love so deeply? Questions I have asked numerous times after losing a loved one. Thankfully I have the Lord Jesus to help me through the darkest times, save me from the grief that surrounds every fiber of my being. It isn’t easy but one must persevere to find the light through the darkest mist of pain.
Does the pain ever go away? No but it lessens over time. A fragrance, sound, or thought can cause all the memories come rushing back in, filling one with inconsolable grief. Over the years it becomes easier but still hurts but the feeling does not last as long each time.
My home is in a small agricultural area in Barton County, Missouri, Golden City. Being born, and living the majority of my life in the County Seat of Lamar, Missouri, I always said that I was born here, and I would probably die here. That did change later in life, I lived in three corners of Kansas for a little over 13 years, and I call Golden City my home now. With a population of less than 770 it sometimes feels too big, however, I can walk wherever I need to go, which is convenient. We have three churches that remain active, a fourth is now closed, and the building sits quietly among the memories of at one time a very active congregation, a medical clinic, two cafes, post office, a flea market, two auto repair shops, barber shop, a library, a convenient store, two places of employment, a foundry, and Golden Forms, which manufactures business forms, and two or three beauty shops, a nice park, and quiet life in general. The county of Barton has a population of less than 13,000. smaller than most cities.